The last day of my college, I always prefer to be normal,
simple and pretending as it happens like that, when there is a beginning then
there will be an end. I always have this type of psychology "yeh din toh
aana hi hai” fir kyu darna. The enthusiasm of my friends was beyond the limit,
the revenge from the college administration for their 4 years molestation, the love for friends, affection, picture
session, the quote written by our friends in college uniform( yep we have
collage uniform and we have to wear it regularly) all these things gave me lots
of happiness.
We all had a firm belief to conquer the world, deep inside
all of us; I felt the vibe despite that 90% of the candidate even didn't get
placed from my batch. I was curious that how many people have enormous
confidence, they don't have a job and they behave like a hero.
I came to the home, my mom smiled at me…so how was your last
day, yeah its good.
okay go, take bath, I made namkeen paratha for you, I know
you like it…
okay maa….dont make it too spicy…
listen ur dad is coming today, sharply at 7.30, so be ready,
you have to receive him from palasia square.
Okay, don't worry I will be their sharply at 7.15.
I am from khargone, and I came to Indore for engineering.
The first six months I live in mayadevi hostel near Geeta Bhawan square (which
was a horrible experience) and another six months I leave in another hostel
(out of the city in front of Vaishnav college). For another 1 year, I leave
with my friend Vaibhav and Ranjan near LiG Square.
But due to my health issue, I told my parents to be with me
in Indore for 2 year. I felt week day by day.
Always ill, sinus problem, headache, all this thing
depressed me day by day.
I always amazed how I passed my first two years because in
most of my written and practical exams I was sick and I simply tried just to
reached the passing mark.
My father without any argument accepts my request( which was his biggest sacrifice as it was not
easy for him to leave without my mom and to manage the expenses of two places
but for my carrier he can do anything).
I was at palasia square sharply at 7.15 with my TVS scooty
PEP(we have one bike and TVS , AND I usually prefer TVS, YAA it's easy to
handle concerning my body weight) . Bus was late due to traffic.
So beta now you
become a mechanical engineer, so what was your next plan, my father smuggled
from behind while I drove my TVs.(My father whole carrier was focused on our
carrier(me and my sis)).
I don’t know, I am
waiting for the result, I said slowly. (Actually, I was confused, I
had studied 4 years and I am completely blank, what should I do and what
was good for me)
Okay let us reached home then we will discuss. (He always
had some plan for me which I never acknowledge).
After dinner my whole
family seating around me to discuss my future. (My dad, my sis, and my mom).
Okay so now what is your plan, my son. I don't know…maybe I
have to look for a job.
According to my opinion, you just carry forward ur GATE
PREPARATION. MY dad said with blinked eyes.
Your mother is with you, go with your "GATE" plan
and I know that if you work hard u will going to crack it out.
No, no, no I am not
going to stay with him, my mother interrupted.
We decided on all this before. He is elder enough to take
care of himself, and look at you…, you seem week day by day…
Don’t worry about me, I am okay and I can do anything for my
son.
Okay, shanu(my sis) what is your opinion, I am right, my
father asked her with full dept of curiosity.
Dad, we have to be practical, didi started with her flow,
now a day competition is too much, if he won't qualify GATE then he lost his
one year, which is very crucial. Most of the company allows fresher, and if he
trie hard he will get the job.
I was listening to all this discussion quietly and I am completely
blanked. I don’t know how to reply, what to reply, nothing.
Okay, son what is your plan, we all want to hear you, don't
seat quite, this is your carrier and you have to make a decision.
After my sister's reply, my father was in re-think mode and
now he wants me to continue the topic.
I don’t know, papa.
You don’t know, after completion of 4 years of graduation.
Don't talk like an idiot, my father smirked at me.
I think didi is right, I will search for a job, that's I
belong to some mechanical unit.(here I just want to quit this all discussion
that’s why I made this statement)
Yes, dad if he tried hard for the next two months, he will
get a good job, my sister with a confident voice.
And she seems happy as I admire her decision.
But now I am more confused, seeking a job was a mysterious
methodology for me.
The idea of gate preparation was clear, join class, work
hard and try to secure good marks but the idea of the searching job was
completely anonymous, especially for the mechanical engineer.
All three of them had a deep discussion at my career, and I
was just seating quite on a chair to make them assume that I was listening to
all of them carefully.
Dad I am going to sleep, I am a little tired. (as after half
an hour I realize that all this discussion was not going anywhere and I had to
take some firm decision and I had to do something for myself .)
I left the room, and I heard my mother's voice …he studied
hard for the last two weeks and he needs some rest, don't pressurize him.. he
would find a good job.
I was on my bed, I didn't want to think anymore, the only
thing which I want to get into deep sleep, but the sleep was far away from me,
its happen many times when we want to get into anything we didn’t get it and
when we didn’t want the things yelling around us.
I tried hard to get into the sleep, I listen the chattering
sound of my family, they were planning for our new home (my new home in mehkar,
maharshtra) they all are excited and it
seems like they want everything best in their budget.
I tried to put my ears off and tried hard to avoid all their
conversation so that I could get some rest.
